Mr Jaw, Meet Mr Floor.

Have you ever wondered if you were getting some sort of outside help in your life? There are times when I do. Often times I will get very upset about "blowing" an exam or test. I rant and rave, blaspheme, quote revelations, paradise lost and Dante's inferno... Nothing can shake the sense that I have failed somehow and I am left to languish in a sea own stupidity for all eternity. Eternity usually means until I get my test back and realize that I got an A!

That's right! Remember all that bitching I did about that Orchestration test? A!My Jaw hit the floor hard enough to leave a small crater. It is almost as if my brain somehow blocked out all the good work I did on the test and focused only on the one question that was impossible. The impossible question quickly consumed my memories of the test until it was the only concept remaining. I could have sworn I just threw a bunch of random crap together in the last 5 minutes.... But somehow that random crap was very very good. Luck? Genius? Angel? Demon? The notation for the harp was brilliant! I don't even remember doing it!

It's not like this type of thing hasn't happened to me before... There have been times where I was so freaked out about writing a theory exam I didn't get out of bed for 2 days! My Dad actually called me from his work just to see if I was "ok". If my dad does that type of thing, it usually means he thinks I am going to kill myself. Again... I got a B+ on the exam that I was sure I had failed. And that B+ was a precious gift coming form Professor Richey. He has automatic fails and Automatic Ds on his exams.

Big Lesson today: Wait until you get your tests back before you let them ruin your day. I apologize to all the people who had to incur my wrath that day.

Tasks completed today:
Recorded and put together Kathy's CD
Lesson with DM
Rehearsed with Borrisa for our show tomorrow.
Electroacoustics class
Handed out first 2 mvmnts for Goetia (Large brass/organ piece)

T minus 13.
Happy Birthday Paul! How old are you now... 24? 25!